Heart-attack with a new sound

i hope your mother knows

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Tue, 21 May 2013 17:51:55 -0400

you were a peculiar boy. i remembered that much
i remembered our hands tangled, i didn’t
want you to let me go. i wish you never did. i
don’t know if there ’ s much point now, for
wishing i mean.

though i find all the oceans foggy now - like
i can’t see the stones at the bottom no more -
i still have this one thing clear. you nod, shut up
i’m talking. we spent a lot of time down on that bench
yeah, you can see it in your head now.

i bet, i bet.
it was always green when i knew it,
like your eyes. until they went blue. they were green
once. i know they were. peculiar boy. your head was
in branches, your hair tugging on the leaves like
they was telling you secrets. don’t forget
that. shut up, i’m talking.

your mother she was a good woman. tidy hair and
neat clothes, i always wanted her frocks. i don’t
think she liked me much, mind. i never could see down
to the bottom of the ocean not when we was kids. not
now either.

i had them put your name on that bench. i didn’t know
the spelling off hand - i never wrote it down, never
knew you long enough to get it proper. you were nicer than
all the other kids. said my hair was golden sand, i
hope your mother knows. i do. it’s a new world now,
maybe we’d be okay if they knew.

she’d be so proud of you, peculiar boy,

i would be too.

"I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am..."

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Tue, 21 May 2013 17:43:35 -0400

“I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am nowhere. Nothing is happening and I am getting more and more sad.”

- Samantha Schutz, I Don’t Want to be Crazy (via ithurtssomuch)

phytos: Fiona Shaw - Untitled (Lies), 2009

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Tue, 21 May 2013 17:35:03 -0400

phytos:

Fiona Shaw - Untitled (Lies), 2009

"I wrote a poem about it, and then threw it away, because that’s the last thing I need right now:..."

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Sun, 19 May 2013 16:35:21 -0400

“I wrote a poem about it, and then threw it away, because that’s the last thing I need right now: More words dedicated to people who will never dedicate a single thing to me.”

- Thought Catalog (via collect-n-win-consciousness)

declaringwar: True

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Sun, 12 May 2013 22:07:09 -0400

declaringwar:

True

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breakfastatbequiettiffany — Sun, 12 May 2013 12:31:32 -0400

Logomachy Ad Nauseum

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Sun, 12 May 2013 08:30:21 -0400

I need to take a shower to clear my head.

I need to take

gun

to my head.

Shower water to clean the tub and the

running wine that cleans

me.

Makes me pure.

Makes things slower.

Diaphanous white over white heat that wrap around my

ankles.

Molotov! Molotov!

A fire from the inside.

A martyr of the remaining pieces sewed together by

blasphemy and red thread looping around the wrists

I press to my eyes.

Mazel tov.

aseaofquotes: Dinaw Mengestu, The Beautiful Things that Heaven...

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Sun, 12 May 2013 07:59:10 -0400

aseaofquotes:

Dinaw Mengestu, The Beautiful Things that Heaven Bears

beautifulandamazing: Ian Cheng Bigger Than Your Blog (Ohm Y God...

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Thu, 09 May 2013 15:21:22 -0400

beautifulandamazing:

Ian Cheng

Bigger Than Your Blog (Ohm Y God // Clayton Deutsch)

2011

"No one saw the moon that bled in my mouth."

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Wed, 08 May 2013 18:48:46 -0400

“No one saw the moon that bled in my mouth.”

- Pablo Neruda (via eulimene)

"If there is a God, He will have to beg my forgiveness."

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Wed, 08 May 2013 18:37:10 -0400

““If there is a God, He will have to beg my forgiveness.””

- A phrase that was carved on the walls of a concentration camp cell during WWII by a Jewish prisoner (via funpoolparty)

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breakfastatbequiettiffany — Tue, 07 May 2013 22:18:49 -0400

gtfothinspo: PEOPLE ARE JUST PEOPLE + recovery playlist +...

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Tue, 07 May 2013 16:30:41 -0400

gtfothinspo:

PEOPLE ARE JUST PEOPLE + recovery playlist + LISTEN HERE

Wings - Little Mix // Omigod You Guys - Legally Blonde The Musical // Lions! - Lights // Parentheses - The Blow // Anklebiters - Paramore // Spotlight (New Regrets) - Patrick Stump // Ac-cent-tchu-ate the Positive - Aretha Franklin // Ghost of Corporate Future - Regina Spektor // Unpretty - TLC // No Consequences - VersaEmerge // Survivor - Destiny’s Child // Put on a Happy Face - Blossom Dearie // Radar Detector - Darwin Deez // What If - Emilie Autumn // Carry On (acoustic) - fun. // Pretty Girl Rock - Keri Hilson // Life’s a Happy Song - The Muppets

(cover source)

shewillbelubed: “Seasons”

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Mon, 06 May 2013 21:35:27 -0400

shewillbelubed:

“Seasons”

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breakfastatbequiettiffany — Mon, 06 May 2013 16:00:30 -0400

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breakfastatbequiettiffany — Mon, 06 May 2013 16:00:04 -0400

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breakfastatbequiettiffany — Sat, 04 May 2013 17:03:18 -0400

I want to throw up I want to make out with you I want to slam my head into the pavement

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Wed, 01 May 2013 20:19:13 -0400

I want to throw up

I want to make out with you

I want to slam my head into the pavement

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breakfastatbequiettiffany — Tue, 30 Apr 2013 16:09:52 -0400

declaringwar: Pretend

breakfastatbequiettiffany — Tue, 30 Apr 2013 00:02:51 -0400

declaringwar:

Pretend